So here we are. Quarantined, unless you're an essential worker. (Which I am; Yea me, I guess) School cancelled, and an unprecedented shortage of MF toilet paper. What's up with that?
I know it's been a while since you've heard from me but I have been busy with working full time and co-piloting another blog with my friend Lenore. You can check us out at www.celebrityreaders.com (shameless plug level activated)
So anyway, how is everyone doing? I'm doing extraordinary well, which really is freaking me out. I keep waiting for shit to get worse. It's like that Star Trek meme where Picard is sitting in the captains chair and asking for the daily damage report.
I mean, I'm healthy, I'm working, we have enough money and food to last us a while so yeah, I'm blessed. Accept for the occasional anxiety cry in the shower (it's a real thing, you should try it), I should come out of this with little to no loss. But I know that I'm in the minority in that. I know there are lots of sick people out there and not enough beds/ventilators for them. I know this shit is sweeping through the world and there is absolutely nothing we can do about it.
I know that first week of shelter-in-place my daughter and I went to the store and spent FOUR hours there just trying to get our normal groceries. For real, I told my daughter to look around and take a mental picture because we were legit seeing history in the making. I know that everyone panicking made me panic. Mob mentality is real ya'll.
I know that my daughter isn't taking not going back to school very well and we can't go see her therapist. (thanks god for telephone appts) I know that I'm a sneeze away from everything toppling over and what I DON'T know is how we would handle it.
I know that I'm scared. Scared for my co-workers who are sick and for my daughter's mental health. I'm scared I'm gonna get sick and how will my family cope with that?
I know that without social media I would have probably gone into a depression.(and everyone else really, yeah?) I know that writing this all out has been cathartic and I keep a journal as well so there's that to help.
I know that I am alone.
So know that you guys all know what I know....
How about sharing some things you know?